February 2012
it is pouring rain. i need to do laundry and pack and unpack until i can fill four days worth of stuff into the only backpack i have. then i have to figure out how to find a car service to take me to JFK. then i’m going to new orleans.
i keep getting these really intense, short bouts of inspiration, time when i feel as though i could do literally ANYTHING. followed by longer, really extreme periods of being down, and i want to do something like die or move to the middle of nowhere or something.
i don’t know what that means.
i’ve had 476 calories today, not counting all of the walking around i’ve done.
i've this new habit
of eating one meal early in the day, and that’s it.
and it’s really fucking hard when you’re around friends all day. but it’s almost making me feel almost okay again. almost.
but not quite.
girlsack:
I want to cheek kiss everyone and tell them how awesome they are today.
someone asked about my wrist while we were dancing at a bar last night.
shit.
cousiny things went well. accidentally managed to get a tattoo. accidentally purged. accidentally got her and i both quite drunk. and now she’s gone and i’m all alone again and i don’t like it.
i’m going to meet my cousin at port authority soon. she’s staying for the night and has never been to nyc before.
i had to dig around to find my jewelry box and pile on a ton of bracelets onto my left wrist. stupid cuts.
question question!
i’m going to NOLA in a few days.
i WANT to take my camera with me. i’ve got a canon rebel eos t3, so it’s not something i can sort of just toss into my bag.
how do i bring this sucker on a plane?
smoked my first cigarette tonight
oops
i’m going to go for a slow, long run tomorrow after classes and grocery shopping. it is finally supposed to actually be warm out [and then rain all weekend]. i want to take advantage of it.
speaking of grocery shopping, what should i get? i always walk into trader joe’s and immediately become super overwhelmed and it never turns out well.
someone come talk to me =(
more cutting, more crying.
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*~SEX QUESTION~*
okay i’m only posting this because no one knows me, and it is kind of embarrassing but whatever. i need help, and hopefully one/some of you lovelies can help a poor girl out.
i’ve been on birth control for four and a half years now - the same one from the start, Nortrel. it’s a low dose pill. and everything was okay in the beginning, NO weight gain, no mood swings, and my...
always so sad.
lol i don't know how to dress myself
can't wait to get my refund from school
tattoo time.
because that’s more important than rent or metrocards or food.
i wish i didn’t know how to cook.
i wish i were shit with my hands and that i couldn’t make things.
grr.